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[13 May 2005|11:44pm]
I have soo many pictures I would love to share.. but i never get around to resizeing and updatting them. So I shall either wait till after D.C then update them all, or slowly but surely post them.

So today was a half day.
I walked over to kells then back here laid around all day. we attempted several times to do something but we just never worked up the will power. It was real cute we played in the rain for awhile & I enjoyed it. um went over danes played with corin her and lindz. Then kell left and rather then sit home alone since lenes grounded, kelly is going to her moms this weekend, all the allen park kids had their 8th grade dance, and jess was M.I.A, I decided to hang out with Marty farty. Then jerron came over a little later. They left about an hour ago no im sleepy..


Goodnight!
i spill my ♥ for you! 3
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[11 May 2005|09:30pm]

May May May... Where do i begin! It has been perfect so far and theres soo much to look forward to. I cant belive candle passing is already tomorrow!!! for all of you non weenies its a little like tradition and the 8th graders pass a candle to the seventh graders and the seventh graders pass a flower back to us.. theres a long story behind it and its a big celebration and i could go on but basically its very touching. We've watched people do this like our whole lives, but this time its us, and well its kind of upsetting to me. And then aahhhh we're starting to plan for graduation! and we did our eigth grade highlight sheet and just all this stuff that makes me feel soo special and sad at the same time!! Eeekk washingtons comeing too!! Me Lene kelly and somehow marybeth got in our room. none of us are quite sure how that happened, but its will be fine!!

I could go on forever.. This month promises to be a great one!!!!

:D )

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[18 Apr 2005|09:27pm]
[ mood | impressed ]
[ music | hot hot heat! ]

O geeez. I was deeply touched by finding neverland. I really dont care how many people thought it was retarded and just pointless. I loved it, it was a piece of art. "Little boys should never be put to bed, everytime they fall asleep they become another day older" for the last 6 months of my life i have been trying to grasp a concept that wasen't really all there yet. and there it is said beautifully. Before spring break i would just lay awake for hours, i really was starting to think i had insomnia. Id think about everything, but never really be able to get anything. Finally, like even before i saw this darling movie i realized that well you cant really always "get" everything.. its the whole point of life. You cant live thinking about why or how that happened because then before you know it youve wasted half of your life on the past rather then living. So I guess what im trying to say is live in the moment! Hold on to all the memories.. good and the bad, they only make you stronger.

Gosh.. what an evolution!


anyways. today was wacky hair and wear or whatever that bullcrap is called. it was nice, i had an extremely fun day. untill the part when i totally forgot about this pope poem thats worth like half of our grade, so she said if i could get it to her before 315 it would count. So i ran to find mommy, she wasent there.. I was gonna run home but choose tryping it out at school would work out better. So i re typed it with a minute to spare and relize it had to be decorated soo i try doing all this shit on the computer and couldent. So just as i was giving up and walked out Miss chidester screams for me to come back.. so i do and she got it to work blah blah, to make a long story short as i was running down the hall at 320 i tripped fell horribley all my book went everywhere and some new family that was being shown around was right behind me just staring at me and chuckling. Might not sound it, but it was quite embarresing.

goodnight loves.. tomorrows like mm sports day!

i spill my ♥ for you! 5
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[17 Apr 2005|08:02pm]
[ mood | I could talk forever ]

 

im not gonan lie.. it could quite possibley be published as a book )

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[09 Mar 2005|03:17pm]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | wake up call, hawthore heights ]

This week has been fabulous, ive liked everything about it! well other then the fact that i suck soo much at floor hockey and i never fail to make myself look like a loser in front of everyone. including the select highschoolers that walk by and participate in our gym hour. But i guess I cant complain to much about that. So i shall not bore you, Have a wonderful day..



P.s I have taken on a new passion for grahm crackers, they are my God

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[07 Mar 2005|04:48pm]

 

Ive convinced myself this might be fun... )

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[21 Feb 2005|02:24pm]
[ mood | giggly ]
[ music | enriqueeee! ]

It was good, it was bad...but it was real.






*Everythings been just peachy lately. We won our last game, we're not going to the playoffs of caurse but despite all the loosing it was still a really good season and i loved the girls! The guys are going..and im very proud of those boys! Their last game was exceptional! Last night Lene spent the night. Just one of the ussuall nights I passed out on my moms bed real early, then we woke up and made smoothies okay theres alot more to that story but ill just leave it at that.


Hope all you weenies had a nice winter break.

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[17 Feb 2005|08:50pm]
Okay im ussually not one for these stupid little chain things..but what the hell, it was all true for me

D0 iT 0NE BY 0NE.D0NT L00K AHEAD!
THiS iS LiKE 99.9% TRUE










1) Write the name of a person of the opposite
sex.








2) Which is your favorite color out of red,
black, blue, green, yellow?










3) Your first initial?










4) Your month of birth?












5) Which color do you like more, black or white?














6) Name of a person of the same sex as yours.











7) Your favorite number?











8) Do you like California or Florida more?












9) Do you like the lake or the ocean more?











10) Write down a wish. (A realistic one).


ARE Y0U D0NE?
iF S0 SCR0LL D0WN.
(D0N'T CHEAT... iM WATCHiNG Y0U... o_0 )
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THE ANSWERS

1. You are completely in love with this person.

2. If you choose:

Red - You are alert and your life is full of
love.

Black - You are conservative and aggressive.

Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid
back.

Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses
and
affection from the ones you love.

Yellow- you are a very happy person and give
good advice to those who are down.


3. If your initial is:

A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in
your life.

L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum
and your love life is
soon to blossom.

S-Z You like to help others and your future love
life looks very good.


4. If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and
you will discover that you fall in love with
someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love
relationship that will not last long but the
memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will
experience a major life changing experience for
the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great,
but eventually you will find your soul mate.

5. If you chose...

Black: Your life will take on a different
direction, it will seem hard at the time but
will be the best thing for you, and you will
be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely
confides in you and would do anything for you,
but you may not realize it.


6. This person is your best friend.

7. This is how many close friends you have in
your lifetime.

8. If you chose:
California: You like adventure.
Florida: You are a laid back person.

9. If you chose:

Lake: You are loyal to your friends and to your
love. And you are very reserved.

Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please
people.

10. This wish will come true only if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN
in one hour and it will come true before your next birthday!!
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[16 Feb 2005|09:49pm]

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease(as a joke of caurse)
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon

23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable laughing fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Called in sick when you were not ill
31. Asked out a stranger.
32. Had a snowball fight

33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier(not the office's but yes)
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster

42. Hit a home run.
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking

45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer

49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job
51. Taken care of someone who was shitfaced

52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied(uhh money doesent make me happy)
53. Had amazing friends

54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe <<<That will be a bold in exactly one year and say 4 months!!
58. Taken a road-trip

59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke(ahaha corn and danne!)
72. Lounged around in bed all day

73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain

79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog

83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business(Lemonade Stand?)
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class.
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight 
 90. Gotten married

91. Been in a movie (Silly ones of caurse)
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't
 have

94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy

96. Had sex at the office

97. Gone without food for 5 days

98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo(henna)
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children---too many of them these days...
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars

130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being

151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery(well i dont know whats considered major)
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi

171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name (not legally)
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch

185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office (student council?)
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream

192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game paper-based, not computerized.
200. Been arrested
201. Shot someone
202. Sang a solo in public, while sober
203. Kissed a hummingbird
204. Given birth
205. Eaten some tree-bark
206. Baked your own bread, without a machine
207. Braided the bread
208. Foraged and eaten wild food, and/or used wild herbs as medicine
209. Climbed a waterfall
210. Walked in total darkness
211. Went snorkeling in the Great Barrier Reef
212. Been mistaken as someone of the opposite sex, and they never realized it
213. Had a supernatural experience
214. Performed at a poetry reading

215. Been to a fetish party
216. Been strip searched
217. Gotten a lapdance at a strip club
218. Gotten hate mail from something of yours that had been published
219. Met someone in person who you first knew on-line
220. Cross-dressed
221. Been a resting-place for a butterfly
222. Had more than two novels published.

 

Took that from amanda!! how i miss that gal. Either some of that stuff was crazy or i havent accomplished much in my 14 years on this planet.

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<3. [15 Feb 2005|05:46pm]

Friday. Was olympic night. worked that for awhile, then Me, Ben, Lene and Joey decided we would go play the games since its like our last one. Me and joseph were partners and Lene and Benny were. Im not positive but im pretty darn sure me and joe beat them!! Then Me,Lene,Ben,Marty,Phil,Kane,and vinnie came back here. Hung out for awhile..Then vinnie left, Evan showed up, and awhile later Jerron came over. We just kinda layed around. Tried watching dawn of the dead, and the grudge. Ended up watching dirty work. Then around 1230 everyone left. Lene spent the night.

Saturday. Well first off that morning was Hillarious! Me and lene were extremely hyper and ran around my house for a good hour dancing for my mom and being queer. Um then had practice. Then later that night went to the movies with martin,Jerron,Phil,Evan, and kane.

Sunday. woke up felt Horrible!! went to our game anyways. Dont wanna talk about that! then um was gonna stay for the guys game but decided i should just go home and rest.

Monday. Woke up felt extremely worse, stayed home..went to the doctors and spent most of the day on the phone with jerron cuz he was sick. then around 1 lene called me cuz she left school earlier. She said that like 50 kids were missing in the middle school and like 60 in the highschool. Then got a call later from school saying we didnt have school tuesday.

Today i just layed around. Had plans to do something with lene and jerron but those failed. so just layed around and pretended I had a life.


 

Random )

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[06 Feb 2005|05:18pm]

 

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see. For all the joy you brought to my life. For all the wrong that you made right. For every dream that you made come true. For all the love i find in you, I'll be forever thankfull baby, you're the one who helped me up...Never let me fall, your the one who saw me through, Throught it all. You were my my strength when i was weak, you were my voice when i couldent speak, you were my eyes when i couldent see you saw the best there was in me. Lifted me when i couldent reach, you gave me faith cuz you belived. I'm everything I am because you Loved me.

 

The retreat was seriously by far the best learning experience i have ever ever gone through. Theres really just no way to explain how great it was. I mean all the parents told us it would be a life changing experience, and somthing we would remember for the rest of our lives, and i just thought that was a bunch of bull. But then being there, going through it all.. It just really changed soo much. It makes me wanna just change everything, and take back all ive done and regret. I actually wanna go to church, and i actually get where people are coming from when they talk about "The Holy Spirit." It was just somthing soo soo unexplainable and basically the people that shared in it this weekend are pretty much the only ones who can honestly now how just umm GREAT it was. I know i sound like some holy holy catholic women but it wasent just me, everyone and i mean everyone of us 50 kids felt some sort of very strong emotion this weekend. And i don't mean to be a bore, or upset the people the didn't go, or even people that have gone and dont feel the same way as I and well pretty much everyone i have talked to about this, and im deffinatly not trying to force my opinion on anyone. But it was truelly truelly something that i will never ever forget, throughout my whole entire life.

Some of the many highlights..

Karoke with dane and corin, we deffinatly tore that thing up!

Reading the notes, balling my eyes out but then looking around the room and seeing everyone else in the same position

Healing a broken friendship, that has really been bothering me for quite sometime

Free time!! and just running around that place like madmans!!

The showers!

My roomies! and our wonderful wonderful times that will never leave that dorm!

Breaking down a gazillion times, and haveing the best people in the world to be there for me. Theres deffinatly no feeling like crying uncontrobley and being held by all of your closest guy and girl friends!!

The whole night overall!!

 

 

 

 

Everybodys got a seed to sow )

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[31 Jan 2005|09:36pm]
[ mood | now thats cool ]
[ music | ja rule, NEW YORK ]

Well at the moment I just got home from practice, finishing my english paper, and doing some fag native american research thing. School was exceptionally good for a monday! Highlight deffinatly had to be math..


Me-I hate cottage cheese, it sorta reminds me of of of NIPPLE DISCHARGE
Martin-Wow ewwww shutup!
ME- no i mean like when i mom is breast feeding and theres like a little left over i guess
Marty-SHUTTTUP thats soo gross
Ben-Wait does breast milk have an experation date?
Kel-I donno ask mr. D
Ben- Gina YOU!
Me-Hey mr. D does boob milk have an experation date?
Mr. D- Im not really sure i guess, cuz my wife had to put it in the fridge
Kel-Wait howd she get it out!
Me- uhh im guessing she just kinda squeezed it
Marty- Ewww you know how milk is made out of cow cheese, well could they make it out of breast milk!!


Wow that was totally just for my own enjoyment! but it was deffinatly a sick, yet very very very hillarious class. Uhh then came home was supposed to go tanning and shopping yet fell asleep on the couch with my momma watching oprah! how cute right?



Well im gonna go shower my sweaty self.. Night guys~

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[30 Jan 2005|07:55pm]
TEN people I enjoy the company of in no specific order:

WAY MORE THEN TEN!!

NINE things im wearing:
Cami
underwear
sports bra
pajama pants
Hair tie...? nailpolish?
uhh nothing else
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EIGHT things on my mind:

I miss phil already
We always lose!
i hate thinking about highschool
my mouth tastes bad
Cant frigen wait for the retreat
papas making alot of racket
I really shoulden't start likeing him
Mr viculins name is kim
this new lindsay lohan song im listening to right now is deffinatly cute

SEVEN items I touch everyday:

Hair
lene
keyboard
phone
pen
tooth brush


SIX things I do everyday:

Go on the compooter
call/receive at least 15 calls from the bee eff eff
say somthing very loud and random in class
brush my hair
pray :D
say i love you

FIVE things I want to do before I die:

become a double dutch champ
conquer my fear of prarie dogs!
skydive
bunji jump
say "Ill see you in court!" in a completly neccesary situation

FOUR things I would never do:

cut myself!!
hit my parents
uhh...drink pee?
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THREE things I think when I wake up:

grr what time is it
I should probley start gettin ready now
Okay maybe now

TWO of my favorite fast foods:

wendys
and taco bell

ONE person I love more than any other:

My mom
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[27 Jan 2005|09:57pm]

 

 

Today was alright.. Classes were all screwed up once again, Latoya sat with us at lunch!!shes hillarious. I dont get how im just figuring that out! Then later we got to skip 7th and 8th hour so we could have our big Chinese Celebration since weve been like learning about Asia all year. It was nice ate chinese food, attempted to watch mulan, mingled with the grade..it was nice! Jeef and dane came over later had fun with those to. So overall my day was just dandy then talked to phil for quite sometime, broke down, i just cant get over the fact that hes really moving. Like ive known about this since the beggining of the year but i guess it just really hit me that he is really movie whether i like it or not. Even though he says hes gonna be here everday and we'll still hang out it scares me because thats exactly what we both said when he left cabrini and we still see each other but we never hang out like old times.

 

heres to phil! )

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[26 Jan 2005|05:06pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | the used..taste of ink ]

Well havent updated in awhile..


Dont really remember everything thats happened lately
but here are some highlights of last weekend

Tinas Party!!
Basketball games..:/
Watching seth with dane and nindz
Hanging out here with umm corin dane nindz and Jill..my darlings I never get to see anymore, which saddens me!!
Jizzum and me gettin krunked and dressing up!
Almost dying of third degree burns with jeef



This weeks been fine. except for effin MEAPS!! O how i despise those things! But on a better note they are sorta alright because they mess up our scedule and so far we've gotten to miss like 15 classes this week, and no homework which i deffinatly dont mind!



I might update pictures later..

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[20 Jan 2005|07:56pm]
hmm..

School=fine
Gym=The best frigen time of my life
After School= Boring, went to the bank signed a bunch of papers for some reason or another i did however feel quite special! umm then came home did homework and some queer religion project..then watched my girl, balled my eyes out, hell what can i say i live a very eventfull life!! it really sometimes shocks me how great of a day i had!!




O and tomorrow i get to indulge in the wonderful experience of going to the doctors and gettin my throat checked once again for problems!!! im sure they wont do many tests, ill have to go to the hospital for those but I just hate doctors offices they scare me!! HEHE jill still crys when she gets pricked! everytime i think of that I crack up for a good five minutes! i love you dill!

Do this by the way!


Your name:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

Do I smoke:

What was your first impression of me upon meeting:

Color of my eyes:

Do I have any siblings:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Do you remember one of the first things I said to you:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

What's your favorite memory of me:

Any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?
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[19 Jan 2005|04:05pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | mr. brightside ]

Hmm I feel very shallow lately..like I have no depth at all to my life if that makes sense. I go to school come home change into pajamas lay around do homework, go to basketball, and then come home and repeat the same long and boring schedule. O add a few basketball games and you have my current life story. My life feels pointless, not that it ever seemed to have a meaning but at least then doing absolutely nothing had a point to it, and it was fun. But now I just kinda never see any of my friends, except lene and jess. And just have a pretty errr what’s the word, Boring...Life. Maybe its not boring maybe its average, maybe its just that before I would run around from thing to thing place to place hanging out with this person and then this person and basically just doing everything non stop because it was fun.. but now I just ponder. I’ve even begun to read in my spare time, that really does frighten me immensely. I’m not gonna blame it on winter either. It’s not the cold wheatear, or the grumpy mood everybody seems to be in anymore, or even the fact that I miss summer o so much, because I know those are sure to return. I guess its just I donno the sudden urge to have no life. Then whenever I try to make plans with people that I usually hung out with every single day the plans either fail horribley or other obligations get in the way. It’s all quite depressing actually..Ohhh Well I guess things are bound to get better and go back to normal. Until then expect very few entries or ones that will most likely bore you.. Or who knows maybe things will shape back up quickly. I’m just praying for a good ol CHANGE

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[16 Jan 2005|08:11pm]
Ive had a fabulous weekend!


friday~Hung out with coltin,trev,and philip for a bit then Nanyner me kara troy and rudy went to the movies coo tina and jesse were there, Coach carter was friken awsome!! then the bee eff eff spent the night, had a fabulous time as always and it was a very nice day

Saturday~Layed around with lene did some hardcore balloon ball over here helped my mother with a bunch of stuff for my uncle who is in the hospital that was rather fun!! then went to practice, after i hurried up went to the movies again with nenifer,paige,jill and alisha and her friend joined us! saw white noise it was scary, not tooo scary but scary


Today..I went to confirmation then had a game..WON! then stayed for a few games and whatched the guys game, they lost it was unfortunate! im sorry boys then went to lenes indoor game, amy was there it was enjoyable! now im back here pondering what im gonna go




SINCE NOOOOO SCHOOL TOMORROW!! I honor you Dr.martin luther king!
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[12 Jan 2005|09:38pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | everywhere..michelle branch ]

I had a very well lets say Emotional day!

School was fine, i mean a few unfortunate events happened but overall it was alright! I got some of my grades for midterms, 99% in social studies!! 95% in math!! and 94% in science!! Im getting like a 3.9! which im very very very proud of! no one belives it though...its not that im not smart i just lack alot of common sense.


Theeenn i was gonna go shopping with mother but i had tons of homework so i didnt. we watched oprah together and they were talking about miracle children and babys that were born beat like all these different odds, and my mom just starts crying and goes You know gean I was never supposed to have children..and i mean i knew thatt before but it never really phased me. And soo she goes plus your father was way older when we were married and he already had three other kids and he was gettin a little old to have children, and of caurse i knew that but just watching all these little babys and stuff really kinda put it into perspective for me. So of caurse I start just balling and then we just hugged each other and i fell asleep. It was indeed very touching.


So then i had basketball which blew soo much!! i caughed all practice and thought i was gonna die, it was really the worst practice of my LIFE! after i came home and my little like pole thing in my closet just snapped in half and all of my clothes poured out so i fall on the ground and just start crying! it was horrible like somthing as little as a closet shouldent get someone that upset but it really did! i guess it was just everything adding up, i dont really know but considering my day i guess it makes sense

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[11 Jan 2005|04:38pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | hurricane..somthing corporate ]

For goodness Sake
i think im on the edge
of something new..With you
Shout out, dont drown the sound, ill drown you out.
You'll never scream sooo loud as i wanna scream with You.






Ive been sick for umm awhile.. soo it was nice to get out of the house today! School went really good actually, except for the fact of my embaressing burn on the top of my lip!! im not sure if i mentioned this before but i thought if you put vicks, like the stuff that make you breathe better all around your noise your stuffy noise would go away. So i louded a whooooolllee bunch on two nights ago and i woke up in the morning with this huge big red puffy lip! and not to mention like all under my noise the skin was gone. I guess i put way to much on for way to long and it burnt my skin off! I know Dude...GROSS. so yea that was pretty darn embarressing but i just told everyone the truth and well i got laughed at and went through the whole day with people going hey gean forget to shave?, and man you got something on your lip! or the famous!! woooaaa what is that! To top things off, in english we were talking about reindeer..and i really thought they could fly! like i mean i knew they couldent fly fly but i just thought maybe they could jump/leap really high! so we start talking about reindeer and i go "No man they can fly! dont you remeber that reindeer and the mouse called like Buckweed." mary beth yells wow Gina it was a moose and a squirell and his name was bullwinkel. Kay it was one of those you kinda had to be there moments but i enjoyed it! it was actually one of the highlights of my days! o yes and getting an A on my math Midterm!!:D and I know i did very well on the social studies one.



....Gotta get back to studying. Maybe update later if i feel the need.

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